Concerns

Is there a place upon your podium
where I can stand and be heard?
If there is, will you hear my voice?
Will you hear every word?
Will I have your undivided attention
as I reveal to you my deepest concerns?
Or will I fare better with an audience of bats
resting peaceably in their darkened caverns?
Will you deny me this also
that I may not reveal having been wronged?
For twelve months, no answers were forthcoming
for this one thing for which I have longed.
I have yearned for you to hear my plea.
Every point to its length.
And still I can say "I love you!"
With all my heart and with all my strength.

The Garden of Love

Serenity and tranquility surround my heart
and I retreat to the recesses of my mind.
A small corner; yet vast upon entering.
It is my quiet place when the world is unkind.
The field abounds with violets
and my friend; my lover; awaits with long and flowing hair.
She sees my tears...even from a distance
and I run to her. knowing she'd be there.
As she wraps her arms around me,
I fall away into another dream.
Where rivers flow all around
and violins play a lover's theme.
Then passion grips my barren heart
as I begin to come alive again.
And the scenery fades to a darkened room;
and I dwell once more amongst mortal men.

The Blessing

Bless the Lord, O my soul,
for he has redeemed me from death.
He is my armor and my shield.
He revives me when I'm short of breath.
Bless the living God of Israel
for He reigns on with all majesty.
Fear Him all you people of Earth.
Do not make Him to be a travesty.
He will kindle His terrible wrath
upon those who do not follow His ways.
Bringing death and destruction to all of them
while exalting the righteous and lengthening their days.

The Sweetest Tea...

My son turns 3 in a couple weeks. He means the world to me and is, by far, the most important person in my life. I find myself at crossroads. Crossroads that may leave me with a broken heart; and him without seeing his Dad on a daily basis. Crossroads that may lead me away from him. Alas, adults have to make adult decisions.

I had not been myself for a while now. I could not convey my thoughts and ideas as I was accustomed to. Now, I'm in the mood to consume sweet tea at all times. Looking for more tee times. Wanting to play with my tee square. In fact, all my wants and desires seem to begin with the letter T these days. Trust, treasure, therapy, trips, titillation, trysts, tomorrow, Tantric exercises, trains...etc.

How grand it is to live in reverie.

I once thought I was lost to the world. Yet now, I feel as if I have found new meaning. A new direction. A few months ago, you came back into my life. I have resigned myself to loving all that is you and all that is me. Together, we can make a world of difference. Apart, our dreams and aspirations may never come to fruition. I'd like to take walks by the lake while holding your hand. Sit quietly on my patio; sharing a moment in time with you. The other night, before I fell asleep, I felt your gentle kiss upon my cheek. I smiled and hugged you tightly in my mind. Why is this happening now? I dare not ask. Are you the one? I need not ask.

You are most delectable. I spend countless moments thinking about the many ways I want to consume you. I want to know you as well as I know myself. I want to know your likes and dislikes; your favorite foods; your fetishes; your favorite flower; your favorite color; your innermost desires. I want to know where you've been and where you want to go. It would be good to be by your side on your journey. While we may not always agree, I'd like to know we can always talk things through. Even if we have to agree to disagree. You have brought a little comfort to this once broken man. There's new resolve. New aspirations. New intentions. You helped me realize what I have been avoiding all this time...an introspective analysis of why I do the things I do.

This fresh perspective may help me become the man I have always been within. It may lead me on a different course from the one I've charted thus far. It may lead me to you or some other part of the world. No matter the destination, I am overjoyed of having made your acquaintance. No matter the final choices we make, you will always have a special place in my world.

My Best Friend

My Best Friend

She stands by me through the hard times.
Quietly telling me what must be said.
Her words are sincere and poignant;
never letting things get to my head.
She has seen me through some difficult times;
times when I was not at my very best.
Pointing out my faults and strengths
sometimes in support; at other times in protest.
She always has a gentle word of comfort
for all who meet this beautiful soul.
The most beautiful soul God has created
whose friendship I will always extol.

Ode To Joie

“The Joy of You”

I want to consume you in the morning as my day begins.
I ache to consume you at noon with the greatest desire.
I yearn to consume you at night as I conclude my day.
I crave to consume you as a forest is consumed by a raging fire.
The richness of your makeup makes you desirable.
The hue of your dark complexion makes you rare.
You have rivaled things that are most delectable.
My awaiting mouth celebrates you with much fanfare.
As I remove your covering and lay you bare.
How sweet it is the very first bite taken.
The sweetest chocolate ever created cannot compare.
Alas, the minutes are few until I awaken.

Lost In Love

“Lost In Love”

The desire that once burned within his chest,
now towers over him like a cresting wave.
He stands motionless but is filled with unrest,
all because of the smile she gave.
No longer did he try to hide his joy.
New life was breathed into his world.
Not being aware it was just a ploy,
into the abyss his emotions were hurled.
He searched the depths of his being
but could not make sense of his state.
He looked in the distance not seeing
his key to the kingdom nor the pearly gate.
Much to her dismay,
he chose to abandon the pursuit.
Never presented the bouquet
that had bloomed in his heart and took root.