The Sweetest Tea...

My son turns 3 in a couple weeks. He means the world to me and is, by far, the most important person in my life. I find myself at crossroads. Crossroads that may leave me with a broken heart; and him without seeing his Dad on a daily basis. Crossroads that may lead me away from him. Alas, adults have to make adult decisions.

I had not been myself for a while now. I could not convey my thoughts and ideas as I was accustomed to. Now, I'm in the mood to consume sweet tea at all times. Looking for more tee times. Wanting to play with my tee square. In fact, all my wants and desires seem to begin with the letter T these days. Trust, treasure, therapy, trips, titillation, trysts, tomorrow, Tantric exercises, trains...etc.

How grand it is to live in reverie.

I once thought I was lost to the world. Yet now, I feel as if I have found new meaning. A new direction. A few months ago, you came back into my life. I have resigned myself to loving all that is you and all that is me. Together, we can make a world of difference. Apart, our dreams and aspirations may never come to fruition. I'd like to take walks by the lake while holding your hand. Sit quietly on my patio; sharing a moment in time with you. The other night, before I fell asleep, I felt your gentle kiss upon my cheek. I smiled and hugged you tightly in my mind. Why is this happening now? I dare not ask. Are you the one? I need not ask.

You are most delectable. I spend countless moments thinking about the many ways I want to consume you. I want to know you as well as I know myself. I want to know your likes and dislikes; your favorite foods; your fetishes; your favorite flower; your favorite color; your innermost desires. I want to know where you've been and where you want to go. It would be good to be by your side on your journey. While we may not always agree, I'd like to know we can always talk things through. Even if we have to agree to disagree. You have brought a little comfort to this once broken man. There's new resolve. New aspirations. New intentions. You helped me realize what I have been avoiding all this time...an introspective analysis of why I do the things I do.

This fresh perspective may help me become the man I have always been within. It may lead me on a different course from the one I've charted thus far. It may lead me to you or some other part of the world. No matter the destination, I am overjoyed of having made your acquaintance. No matter the final choices we make, you will always have a special place in my world.